Recruited to Opus Dei at age 15: ‘I don’t think I’ve ever come to terms with the enormity of what happened to me’

Anne Marie Allen tells The Women’s Podcast about her gruelling life within Opus Dei

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Anne Marie Allen, author of Serve: My Lost Years at the heart of Ireland's Opus Dei
Anne Marie Allen, author of Serve: My Lost Years at the heart of Ireland's Opus Dei

When Anne Marie Allen was fifteen she was accepted into a catering college with dreams of becoming a chef. Instead she was tricked into a life of domestic servitude with Opus Dei, an institution of the Catholic Church that was founded in Spain in 1928 by Josemaría Escrivá.

Allen worked part time in a local hotel in Ballyvourney Co Cork when two women arrived to her family home saying that they were interviewing for a free catering course. The women said that Allen would receive pocket money of five pounds a week and a job guaranteed by the end of the two year course.

This meeting began the 6 year long ordeal chronicled in Allen’s memoir Serve: My Lost Years at the Heart of Ireland’s Opus Dei.

In this episode of The Women’s Podcast, the Cork author discusses her experience.

After a few weeks Allen began to notice “there didn’t seem to be any catering teachers there. There were members of Opus Dei.”

These members of Opus Dei were known as “the local council, the directors, the sub directors, and the Secretary.

“But none of them seemed to have qualifications in catering,” adds Allen.

As a teenager she cooked, served, ironed, washed, scrubbed for the members of Opus Dei.

“Not long after I joined, maybe a couple of months, I was called up into the director’s bedroom, and she gave me this little bag, and I opened it up, and there was a chain, a kind of barbed wire with two cords in it and a whip.

“She said, ‘these are for mortification’,” recalls Allen.

Allen says that she was told to wear the chain on her leg for two hours every day, and on occasion for an extra hour a day depending on behaviour.

The whip was used “on your back, your legs or your bum”.

“There was other mortifications as well,“ says Allen, including but not limited to sleeping on the floor without a mattress, sleeping without a pillow and cold showers.

“They were obsessed with the idea of temptation, of temptation and sin, the occasion of sin,” she says.

However, “the chain and whip were nothing in comparison fraternal correction,” says Anne Marie.

“Fraternal correction as it was marketed to us was a way of helping us improve our spiritual life and and how to become more aligned to the perfect member of Opus Dei. But what it was a form of behavior control”.

Fraternal corrections were verbal reprimands from your peers based on conduct. “You were only supposed to get one a week but I remember getting two a day”.

Although Allen says that she is in a “good place now”, she says she will “always be recovering” from her time in Opus Dei.

“I don’t think I’ve ever come to terms with the enormity of what happened to me and what happened to us all. I know. I don’t think I’ll ever get over it. I will never stop fighting to correct it”.

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