Morris Tribunal: Ms Adrienne McGlinchey told the Morris tribunal yesterday that she stood by her evidence of events no matter how outrageous they seemed.
Ms McGlinchey said she regretted all the things she had done but now she felt relieved it was over.
Mr Peter Charleton SC, for the tribunal, asked about her evidence of being told by Det Garda Noel McMahon to pretend to be an IRA informer, being put in his power over a cheque fraud, being drawn into placing bullets, fertiliser and explosives for gardaí to find and how Supt Kevin Lennon was also involved. Was she telling the truth?
"Everything that I have said is what happened, no matter how outrageous they seem to be, I can't change them and I'm not getting anything by humiliating myself by saying that I done these things. I did do them but I did them along with Noel McMahon and Kevin Lennon and no matter what I'll not be changing that."
Mr Charleton said her evidence amounted to the scenario that she was a weak-willed, defenceless, friendless girl who had no one to talk to, who was being abused and bullied by the two men.
Ms McGlinchey agreed but denied she was mischievous or wasting Garda time.
Mr Charleton asked why she put up with such a scenario from from 1990 to 1994.
Ms McGlinchey replied: "Because I was trapped. I couldn't get out of it and once my fingerprints were on the bullets and I was told I was going to jail, I was afraid to go home and say it and, you know, I regret having done these things but I did them and there was no way out and if you were in the situation at the time, it just seemed to go on and on and never stop, and the next incident was supposed to get me out of the last one."
Asked how she was now, she said she thought she was able to cope as she had told her family and they were standing by her. She had a business and had not had a drink since 1999.
Mr Charleton asked if she was in a bad way at the time. She said she held a job but could not take the pressure. She was afraid her family would find out.
" I was always afraid 93/94 and was I off the rails? I don't know how I could explain what I was like. It even scares me to look back to think the way I was feeling at the time. Was I thinking it was funny? Was I enjoying standing out in the cold and the wet and waiting for gardaí and doing this and fertiliser and grinding? I wasn't enjoying it," she said.
There was constant aggravation. "Was I enjoying it? No, I'm sorry, I wasn't and I'm glad it's all over and whatever becomes of this here, I mean, if anybody decides to tell what happened, at the end of the day, I don't care because I've got myself back and I'm me now," she said.
Mr Charleton put it to her that all her activities and her evidence were attention seeking.
Ms McGlinchey responded: "Do you really think that I want to say that I done this, that I want everybody at home to walk up the street and point their fingers and say 'Look at that idiot' because that's what I was when I look back now . . . I would be better off to say I was off my head and I did it myself."
She said she did not want people to know she was running around in a surveillance van with two gardaí. It was not attention seeking because she was actually humiliated looking back.
"You know, when it's over I'll feel better but when I go home at the weekends and people are looking at me . . . it has to be said because it must never happen to anybody else and whether you choose, or anybody chooses to believe that this happened, it did happen and I didn't do it alone and I didn't do it on my own and its probably happened plenty of people," she said.