Young mother in desperation after prescribed methadone supply is cut

Ann is facing another night of horrors. It is after 7 p.m. and the pains are starting to make her rock in her armchair

Ann is facing another night of horrors. It is after 7 p.m. and the pains are starting to make her rock in her armchair. In an hour's time she will be curled in a ball, shivering, crying and hoping that her children will not begin to cry too.

Life is tough enough for the young single mother of three small children without the nightly pains of heroin withdrawal. Since October 1st, when her GP-prescribed methadone supply stopped, she says her life has disintegrated.

Twelve months on the heroin substitute meant that she had been coping and raising her young family, she says. "I wasn't even thinking about heroin. That was it as far as I was concerned. I was thinking ahead. I even got a little job then. If this thing hadn't happened I'd be off it now."

The signs of that stability surround her in her small, smart corporation flat. The walls were painted a warm colour by her father. The television, a present from her family, sits on a new unit, with a matching corner cabinet. When she first moved in all she had was the "stuff from my bedroom".

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But she is not sure how long it will be before she sells her television to the first taker. "I nearly sold it the other day."

She is buying and bartering for heroin on the streets, sometimes having to bring her children with her when she goes to score. "And it's horrible," she says in tears, so vehemently the word comes from the depths of her stomach. She worked as a hairdresser after leaving school, and started smoking heroin almost three years ago. "Nobody put a gun to my head," she says wryly. But a boyfriend would bring her to a house where the drug was on tap. "I'm not on the scene," she explains. "I'm a very quiet person."

Ann should be benefiting from the new protocol. She says she is a low-level heroin smoker rather than an intravenous user. She does not seem immersed in the heroin culture like a more chronic user.

She has a treatment centre on her doorstep, a few minutes' walk from the flat. But they have refused to assess her for methadone, telling her she is not in their designated postal district. Instead, she is being sent to another clinic, where she is still on a waiting list.

For her there was no alternative but to go back to taking street drugs, she says. She is terrified her children will be taken into care. Last week she rang her parents for help, admitting she was back on heroin, so they could take her eldest toddler as she was unable to cope.

"I'm very angry. Look at me now. I'm gonna have a terrible, terrible, terrible night. If my doctor was able to write I'd be okay." It is after 8 p.m. and the babies have started to cry. She has heard that someone in a nearby pub is selling 100 ml of methadone for £20. But she has no money. So there will be another long night, staring at the clock, willing it to be 9 a.m. when the post office welfare counter opens. Since this interview she has been told she may be put on a treatment programme this week. It is the most definite information she has had from the health board since she started looking for methadone more than four months ago.